I am a school bus driver by trade. I drive for a private Christian school which has its name printed I bold, advertised letters on the side of my bus. The other day while I was fueling, a trucker beside me at the pumps decided to engage me in conversation. It started with noting the beauty of that mornings sunrise, one of the perks and blessings of being on the road. Then he switched gears. Nodding at the name on the side of my bus he suddenly asks me what I think of this whole pride month thing. The way he asked me was as though the name on the side of my bus indicated that we shared a common viewpoint and a common language. He assumed that we would be able to say what needed to be said without using words that could be overheard and thus get us in trouble and/or persecuted. He assumed that because I drive a bus with the word “Christian” on the side that I must have certain feelings about all this pride being celebrated, and that part of that shared language was wrapped up in necessary conviction that our free speech was under threat and, as he made sure to note, his veteran status was being undermined. One day to celebrate his service, as he put it. A month to celebrate Pride.

Something about how that whole conversation went down left my unsettled.  Wasn’t sure quite what to do with it. The irony of it was that if I said anything in that moment that challenged his assumptions about our shared language it would be me being the oppressor. He was clearly far less interested in hearing more I thought than he was in maintaining the relevance of this insiders club.

And then I came to this article, and I thought it was an interesting perspective and take on Pride month and how words and language play into how we see their meaning. Written by a Christian who is also gay. Been pondering this quote inparticular:

“The question is not, “What does rainbow flag symbolism mean?” The question is, “To whom does rainbow flag symbolism have meaning? Who am I trying to communicate with, and what will they understand this symbolism to mean?”..

In cases where the people I encounter have different understandings of the same symbol, whose understanding is a higher priority to me? Who am I willing to risk being misunderstood by? Will I have an opportunity to clarify my meaning to one audience but not to another? In which case will correct understanding create more good, and in which case will misunderstanding create more harm?”…

perhaps we’d be better off if we approached these situations with fewer categorical answers and more genuine questions. Perhaps we’d be better off if we asked the people we love what these symbols mean to them, instead of assuming we already know their answers.”

https://www.centerforfaith.com/blog/rainbow-flags-and-symbolic-ambiguity?fbclid=IwAR2aw6eZL637qrnQD04nJHfvTmjnFLUXcJnsjJQFY04O2pC_ixdbf8jKaCk

Film Journal 2023: Flamin Hot
Directed by Eva Longitis

Maybe this will be a hot take, appropriately so, but those crying foul over the news reports demonstrating that Montanez, the real life character behind the Memoir this film is based on, did not actually invent flamin hot cheetos are making a mountain out of a molehill. And largely missing the point of what a Memoir is- your story written from your perspective.

It would be entirely diffent if this whole thing was causing harm. Choosing to tell his story the way he did was little more than a matter of accentuating certain aspects so as to dramatize the points he really wanted to make. In fact, even a small bit of research can show that most of what we find in this film is rooted in something true, be it about his life, his career, or even the creation of flamin hot cheetos. Does he rewrite some of that history to serve the whole janitor to manager American dream story? Yep. Does it collapse relevant bits together to speak and write more smoothly? For sure. Does it glamorize and romanticize assembly line work to a degree? Certainly. Although, having grown up doing that work myself it didn’t fill altogether false.

Rest assured though that the basic beats of the story beyond his efforts to present his story at the center of something he played an important role in even if he did not “invent it”. And the story is pretty dang effective and entertaining as it is. I have not read his Memoir, but from what it sounds like it captures his spirit and his energy perfectly, and it is infectious.

Perhaps even more so though is the window this film affords us into the job he eventually came to work his way into; marketing products. In fact, that is exactly what this film is, an exploration of how marketing works. It wants to sell his story as much as the product, and it does not hide how this works. It works by making us feel a certain way about it. It packages it up into something that will sell, and the CEO essentially explains this pretty directly in the film.

And truth be told, most of us live our lives buying into that all the time. Most of life works exactly this way, even when it comes to selling ourselves. That bubble only bursts or matters in the face of true controversy and wrong doing. But I am convinced at this point in time, and full credit to the film, that this is not the case when it comes to the man who invented the flamin hot cheeto

Film Journal 2023: The Wrath of Becky
Directed by Matt Angel and Suzanne Coote

Loses a bit of the magic of the first absent a scene stealing turn from Kevin James as the central antagonist. Seann William Scott is capable, but we don’t get enough time here, nor enough of a story for him to occupy the stage like his predecessor did. As well, where the first one had a natural arc when it came to the character of Becky, starting off one person and becoming something different in light of the threat and the trauma, in this one the character is written far more singular, catering more to a stylish graphic novel vibe. Full points to the film though for still retaining its focus on trauma and the ways it impacts who we are. That remains inherent in the subtext and it gives this film a necessary weight and sense of intrigue that elevates the slasher premise. And to be fair, that singularity fits the amped up campiness of the sequel just fine, even if it does feel slightly less memorable.

This sequel manages to have some fun with the whole premise by leaning into Becky’s world (her world reclaimed from the invaders), and any time we get one on ones with Becky and any number of the films supporting characters, Lulu Wilson’s all out commitment to the role helps make the films tight run time (under an hour and a half) completely worth it.

Reading Journal 2023: Life On The Mississippi: An Epic American Adventure
Author: Rinker Buck

“American children have been raised for more than two hundred years on the cherished rubrics of the Declaration of Independence, “all men are created equal” and the inalienable right to “life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness.” But the founders who gave civilization these words… also lusted for the West.”

This is the story of Rinker Buck’s seemingly crazy endeavor to follow in the footsteps of the flatboaters of the past by building a boat and traveling the Mississippi down to the New Orleans. In the early chapters he sets the stage for the above quote to represent the thrust of the lessons he would come to glean from his journey. Caught inbetween the ideological push of the east and the capitalist expansion of the west is a buried but significant and altogether defining portion of America’s history, and even its present: the river. In many ways it is the river that holds in its grasp the potential promise of a country unencumbered by either of those two polarities, even as it becomes clouded by the push and pull of the sheer force of power inherent in the two sides.

What is interesting about these lessons is that it unintentionally manifests itself in the crew that Buck assembles. A mix of conservative and liberal voices and personalities that render his navigating of the waters and its history a refreshing appeal for balance and genuine inquiry. It helps the lessons and observations to feel less targeted than it is honest about what the river celebrates and also helps to hide.

I have read quite a few books on the rivers history, long fascinated by its story. 8 or so years ago I did a trip that followed the river road from its humble beginnings in northern Minnesota to Memphis. One day I hope to finish it by making it to New Orleans. So I was really excited to read of Buck’s experience and gain his perspective on a path I had likewise traveled in interest of gaining an intimate awareness of its history, albeit by road rather than boat. It’s worth pointing out a small criticism here towards that end: he spends most of his time on the Ohio, not the Mississippi. For as much as I really enjoyed the story of the Ohio, I was slightly let down by how little attention the Mississippi was actually given. Once I realized the focus was on traversing in the footsteps of the economic trade route, which remains active and thriving on the riverbeds to this day even if the river has now largely been tamed and reshaped into a man-made structure, then I was able to settle in for the ride with greater ease.

What sets this one apart is the experiment of the endeavor. The book essentially follows his journey from the seedbed of an idea to researching how to do it (safely and successfully) to embarking on the journey, the book ultimately being his reflections on that experience. Intermixed with that is the byproduct of the research he did on the history of the river itself. If you like adventure, I imagine the thrill of figuring out how to build a boat and how to navigate the river safely and actually executing that in reality will make this book worthwhile. If you like history there is also plenty of that.

Or, if you are like me, you’ll appreciate both aspects along with a third; the philosophical wonderings that emerge along the ride, perfectly suited for capturing both the romanticism of the river and its wildness.

I do think the book is important as well. It makes some interesting lived and read observations about America present and America past, relating specifically to the question of its story or its defining narrative. For me it was fascinating, and even validating, to read about the uniqueness the river holds in this story. It helps to reformulated the typical ways in which left and right are both held hostage to the “land”. In the river we find both a deeply rooted connection to the wider world as well as the trappings of that east-west divide imprisoned in its banks. Knowing how to tell both of those stories together is a part of the art of Buck’s honest search for the truth of the rivers “mythology”.

Reading Journal 2023: It Didn’t Start With You: How Inherited Family Trauma Shapes Who We Are And How To End The Cycle
Author: Mark Wolynn

First off, let me address the apparent elephant in the room when it comes to this book. I had some suspicions in the early pages that the author might fall in the category of pseudoscience rather than being qualified to speak on the subject of epigenetics and genetically based trauma. Turns out I wasn’t alone, as goodreads affronts you with big bold capitalized letter reviews warning any and all readers curious over this books alluring title about his lack of qualifications and peer reviewed research.

I’m not sure how much of that is true. A little bit of research uncovered that he is the founder of the Family Constellation Institute, an established teacher at reputable educational institutions and published in the Elepehant Journal, the New Yorker and Pscyh Central. But his approach certainly veers towards popular theory as opposed to scholarship.

Credit where due though, the early chapters do make plenty of references to legitimate scientific studies and his notes are chalk full of reputable books, absent a bibliography. In truth, the uncertainty of that whole thing aside, that’s not even my biggest issue with the book. I’ve read plenty by authors musing over theoretical ideas that have been more than worthwhile. My bigger issue is with how his ideas essentially get wrapped up in a self help premise that abuses examples from his own work and clinic by presenting them as proof text for his own ideas. It’s like the whole thing is designed to say, look at how my ideas helped these people successfully overcome their trauma. Now you can do it too. Worse yet is how it tows this line, and I would argue crosses it, where the one experiencing the trauma is made the victim of their own making.

Here is the nuts and bolts of the books main ideas (or idea; the whole exercise is set up so as to narrow down and locate ones trauma in a single sentence). He begins with a discussion about fear, and how those fears are bound to inherited family trauma. He defines inherited family trauma as a web, interconnecting the experiences of generations, and it is trauma that, relating to its core expression- fear- we cannot articulate, it expresses itself unconsciously. Thus the rest of the book is given to formulating a practice of necessary articulation. We must locate, as he calls it, the family mind, or family consciousness, which is essentially the story of the genetic factors carrying our trauma, and then utilize the “core language approach”, which is simply searching out the clues of the central “unconscious themes” of our life (where we merge with our familial past, where we have rejected or blamed it or cut ourselves off from it, where we have experienced early interruptions to our development when it comes to our parents, and where we identity ourselves with another family member other than our parents). These unconscious themes can then become the basis for articulating our core complaint (what we feel the problem is), our core descriptor (how we define the problem in words or adjectives), our core sentence (taking the problem and our adjectives and putting it in to a sentence), and eventually allowing that sentence to define our core trauma. Rewriting the sentence into a positive statement rather than a fear based statement can then become a way of addressing the trauma and gaining agency over it. This relates to the final third of the book which reimagines core trauma in light of the core languages of our transformation- bonds/separation, relationships, success, and medicine.

This idea can apply to other circles of our life beyond family in certain ways, however the science, and its a real science, applies directly to the genetic and biological factors that lie behind trauma. Thus it has a specific interest in family dynamics. Much of this does feel like common sense. Perhaps not something most of us really would desire to confront or even recognize. And yet it seems to be true that we all carry this, and leaving it as unconscious factors in our lives, or worse yet unintentionally living distant from it, is often a way to give it power over us.

It’s fair to say that I’m sure there will be readers for whom this book will be helpful. I found it personally disaffecting, if even a bit problematic, but I tend to be fairly adverse to the self help genre, especially where it can lend itself to pseudoscience. His work seems to be based in something true, but operates outside of the general system of research and thought. Whether that is a positive or a negative will likely depend on the reader.

Film Journal 2023: Transformers: Rise of the Beasts
Directed by Steven Caple Jr.

Positioned somewhere between Bumblebee’s not so subtle rewriting of the timeline when it came to Bay’s ever growing mythology, and Bay’s original Transformers, the jury’s out on whether to call this a sequel, a prequel or a reboot. And while it shares certain characteristics with both of those aforementioned films, blending Bay’s reverence for the source material with the pure storytelling and clear sentimentality of Travis Knights reimagined stand alone entry, Steven Caple Jr. (Creed 2) brings his own distinctive touch to the franchise.

Thematically speaking, one of the things that becomes abundantly clear in the early going of Rise of the Beasts, following an opening sequence designed to set the stage for the larger story and essential conflict, is the space Caple Jr. wants to give to the human counterparts. The story, set as it is near the beginning of the timeline, features a rough and gruff Prime suspicious of humans and their motivations, and uses this to say something about the essential human relationship to the alien Transformers. A shared plight (the literal end of the universe) parallels the subsequent journeys of Prime and Anthony (featuring a solid performance by Noah Diaz), establishing an intimate concern for the journey underneath the bombastic action of the larger narrative. This is a surprisingly patient film when it comes to the pacing, trading a lot of the busy action of Bay’s films for one on one interactions.

This also affords Caple the ability to give attention to the detail and design of the Transformers and the landscape that they occupy. There is some nice work on the cinematography front, and the clarity of the alien machines is sharply rendered in their “transforming”. Mirage is a particularly cool addition. It is a world that is meant to be appreciated as much as it’s meant to be enjoyed.

I’m actually a considerate fan of Bay’s entries. I feel like he gets grossly misunderstood, and his fans can certainly attest to the fact that the care he gives to the lore and catering to the fandom is clear, littering his films with the smallest details designed to capture the attention of those invested in the comics and the different iterations of the story. Say what you will about Bay’s stylings and the over expansiveness of his storytelling approach, there is a certain awareness that he has of the franchises sensibilities and style that absolutely deserve praise and acknowledgment.

If Caple has made a film that should win over some who find Bay’s cinematic tendencies offensive and grating, it might also isolate, as Bumblee did, die hard Bay fans. There is a world where you can see this standing as a definitive response to the over abundance of those previous films. However, at the same time, one of the clear strengths of Rise of the Beasts is it’s straight up homage to the stories 90s. This is playing directly off the popular “beasts” series, and more than this is calling back to the stories I grew up with. Set in 1994, my graduating year, it functions as a glorious call back to the franchises original heyday, captured wonderfully in a recreated New York City. The “liberating” playlist is super fun, the vibe is super fun, and it all serves as a reminder of what made this franchise fun back in the day. And given where this film ends up, the best is yet to come.

I’ve been thinking about these two interconnected pieces on Across the Spiderverse by Think Christian all day today. One a podcast episode, the other an article located here https://thinkchristian.net/spider-verses-great-commission and here https://thinkchristian.net/podcast/spider-verse-spirituality

I had some similar thoughts floating around in my head, but I couldn’t quite place it or make sense of this. The element of these pieces that helped me narrow it down to something comprehensible was simply this; in Into the Spiderverse the question being asked is “who can be Spiderman”. The answer we get is anyone can be Spiderman. The question being asked in Across the Spiderverse is “what does it mean to be Spiderman”

The author and host of these pieces then finds in that a correlation between the central question plaguing the NT letters (does one need to be circumcised to follow Jesus) and the answer that comes with the proclamation of the Gospel being taken to the Gentile (all) the world.

Now, I do disagree slightly with some of the Protestant assumptions of the above writers and hosts. The answer they find is the classic refrain “by faith through grace”. My own reading of that verse rests on the assumption that grace is the gift of the person and work of Jesus in establishing the kingdom of God through the defeat of the enslaving Powers of Sin and Death, and that faith is best rendered faithfulness to or allegiance to the Kingdom of God. But I do love how they tease out the parallels and the simple and concise correlation between the questions of the film and the questions of the text.

It called up for me another two films as well: The Last Jedi (who can be a Jedi) and Rise of Skywalker (what does it mean to be a Jedi). What I especially appreciated about those two questions is how, taken together, they point to the importance of being bound to a larger story. Simply to say that anyone can be a Jedi is meaningless without the greater hope the story the Jedi is attached to. Without that all they would have is enslavement and defeat. The Darkside wins.

In Spiderman the question is more intimately tied to that basic relationship between being and becoming. If it is simply about becoming, then the portrait we are left with is one that remains detached from the larger story. As the above works note, by saying that anyone can be Spiderman, Across the Spiderverse is forced to wrestle with the problem of community, and diversity within community. Without a grand narrative to bind these spiderpersons together, any sense of being Spiderman becomes pointless and defeatist.

Being roots us in a larger story that then informs our becoming. The question then is, what does it mean to be Spiderman. Similarly, what does it mean to be a follower of Jesus, or in broader terms a child of God. Here is where story matters, both to the film and to the biblical narrative. Ephesians 2:8-9 is often rendered;

For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God— not by works, so that no one can boast.

The better rendering, in my opinion, would be the following;
For it is by (the grace gift) you have been saved, through (the faithfulness of Jesus)- and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God- not by (circumcision), so that no one can boast

This simple reappropriation of the language of the text moves it from being focused on us as individuals to the larger story that defines us and beckons us to participation. Thus, to be Spiderman means to bind ourselves to the nature or character of Spiderman in a formative sense. This does not diminish our agency and distinctiveness, it affirms it and locates it as well in the common human experience. It anchors us in community and allows the diversity of our becoming to be caught up in the hope this represents. Across the Spideverse locates this overarching story in family and relationship, rooting it in a central portrait of home, something that has the power to define who they are as spiderpeople even as the story gets recontextualixed into the particular fabric of their lives and their experiences

You can access this podcast episode on any platform you use for your podcasts through onscript.

This is a dialouge with a scholar named David Moffitt about his new book Rethinking the Atonement. He specializes in the letter to the Hebrews, and this latest book is sort of summation of his interest in the subject of atonement that has emerged over the  course of his career.

I wanted to post it. First because it resonates with much of my own personal journey when it comes to understanding atonement as a theology. Second because he at least aligns himself with the reformed tradition (Baptist variety), which I typically struggle with. The interview is both a good example of the policing and control that happens within reformed circles and the potential of thinkers within those circles when they are willing to challenge some of those tightly guarded ideas. His ideas here are profound and important, and you can see and feel him caught in the push and pull of his Tradition.

What resonated for me in terms of his ideas? He presents three fundamental truths about atonement and its relationship to sacrifice that challenge commonly held assumptions
1. Often blood gets associated with death when in scripture it is explicitly associated with life, especially when it comes to the sacrificial system. When we apply this both to the sacrifice of Jesus and to the day of atonement it changes how we perceive the cross and what the cross does

2. In the sacrificial system death always happens outside God’s dwelling place. It is seen by the ancient communities to be associated with the wilderness space. What’s really interesting about how he draws this up as a portrait is that he sees the cross (the death) as one part of a much larger story, and whereas the tendency is to boil atonement down to the cross and to interpret it through a necessary death, atonement is actually something that comes latter in the story.

To this end he imagines the story as a movement from one space to another. He notes how in the sacrifice system, which is telling a story itself through the different parts of the rites, most of which have nothing to do with death at all, it involves bringing a gift to God which can then be determined as acceptable in terms of how it fits into that story. These gifts are burnt and rise up into the space (the tabernacle/temple) where God dwells. Where it concerns the blood, the power of the unpolluted life is seen to cleanse the external space where God dwells of she pollution that occurs in proximity to the wilderness.

When we apply this to Jesus, what we have is the blood cleansing the temple space (creation) as it becomes an acceptable gift of God given to humanity. The death is not the gift, the blood is. As it is with all creatures, the blood resides with God as a representative work. The representation is not a necessary death but a transformed life in a transformed space that we can now reside in by way of the blood (life’s) transforming power. Thus Jesus resides at the right hand of the Father becoming our means of participation in this transformed space, leading to our transformation through faithfulness. This is where we find not a death that declares us forgiven but a proclamation of the full forgiveness

3. It is through the resurrection that we have the subsequent part of the story: the defeat of the enslaving Powers of Sin and Death, and in the ascension the establishing of a king over the new creation space. This is, Moffitt suggests, the difference between Jesus as an eternal high priest and the high priests who have died (citing Hebrews). Is that Jesus sits with the Father advocating for us. This is the continual work. And tgay advocating is tied to the idea of the acceptable gift. What is notable there is that the acceptable gift is not a sinless life but rather is a representative idea of what our lives become conformed to through faithfulness.

In this sense, the story is so much bigger than the cross, the cross is not a necessary death in that portrait, and as a story atonement becomes more of a multifaceted answer to the problem that we see in the world. I loved how he put this. That all have sinned is to break down the things that we use to separate us versus them, but what this does not mean is that this story is about total depravity needing a necessary payment of death as punishment. That’s not the story at all. The story that we get is Jesus, and Jesus’ story is telling the story of Israel as a Gospel for the whole of humanity. And thus we do have a portrait, especially where it intersects with passover of both oppressed and oppressor, sinner and sufferer. Atonement speaks, for example, as much to the abused as it does the abuser, and in different ways from different angles of and points in the larger story,

David Moffitt – Rethinking the Atonement

Reading Journal 2023: Danny The Champion of the World
Author: Roald Dahl

Dahl trades his familiar penchant for magical settings with quirky, fantastical characters for a straight forward story about a father and a son set in the everyday world. He manages to retain a bit of the zany however. It’s just redirected, for example,towards life for the two in a traveling caravan, a father cloaked in mystery, late night driving adventures with a child behind the wheel.

In fact, there’s something just a little bit quirky about a plot that turns a petty thief into a celebrated figure. All in the name of robbing from the rich of course. Social inequities and economic disparity is on full display here.

The story is littered with fun descriptive, especially when it comes to the different characters. It’s all from the child’s POV, which takes the everydayness of it all and makes it feel larger than life.

Modern sensibilities might be bothered by.the heavy presence of pheasant hunting, so fair warning on that front. A commonplace affair in its day, I’m sure.

I have a preference for his other works, but I absolutely see the appeal of the straightforward childhood story and the simple adventures shared between father and son.

Film Journal 2023: Kandahar
Directed by Ric Roman Waugh

Decent Butler led political thriller. Noted for its commitment to taking the time to explore the different relationships in the film, be it between the different counties or the different people caught up in the back and forth violence of the whole thing. It might be fairly standard stuff, but I felt like I knew and cared for the characters by the time it was over, and that holds enough weight to make this work. I’m certain the is more than enough political opinion to go around given the different circles represented in the film. But at the very least it’s a place to begin some dialogue about it. The fighting sequences also stay relatively simple and straight forward, save for a few from the final quarter, including a satisfying final 20 minutes. I suspect that was a move to keep the whole thing relatively realistic.

Fits the bill. Won’t upend any expectations, but if you expect some standard Butler fare positioned on international soil it should satisfy.